If you play video games, you eventually find out that it’s not a good idea to kill all the monsters. You don’t have to kill everyone. For effective and elegant gaming, it’s better to kill what you need to kill then move on very quickly. That means, in practical terms: do not try to win every argument, do not try to solve all your problems. In fact, leave most of your problems alone. Do not resolve your conflicts, do not fix what’s broken. Leave most of it alone. Dedicate your time, your consciousness, only to what’s important. Let everything else fall as it may.
Philosophy in its true form is to utilize language the same way a mathematician utilizes numerical formulas. A mathematical problem contains its own solution. And in that same manner a philosophical question contains its own answer. To engage in a true philosophical question is to extract from it its own resolution, its own death. For in engaging with the question there is the death of the question. And in that sense philosophy becomes magick.
Ultimately, there is beyond the center of centers, there, at the origin of your attention, beyond the sense of self, the origin of all you are. This is the God that creates the world that you perceive. This is the God that sustains the life of the one that says ”I Am”. This god within has been considered the greatest of heresies of all the religions that have made a world of worship, the have created a culture that sees them, and only them, as the true intermediaries between you and god. Their success, strength and wealth has depended on you believing that you are not god; that you are only a limited ego that is a suffering fool whose only possibility of happiness depends on the graces of an external, remote god, and whose only intermediary is the church.
In this unholy trinity, a tyranny of a remote father and a tyrannical mother, are placed the only source of redemption for a child that never grows. But the truth is that the Holy Father is you, not your ego, not your identity, not even your memories, but you—the one behind the curtains of perception. You are the true God, and this vessel of flesh and mind that contains the history of humanity, that contains all knowledge and experiences, that contains the good and the bad, that contains all the teachings, and all the words of all the masters is the true church.
The marriage between God and the church produces, outside of you, the kingdom of heaven—always new, always created, always reflecting the will of god. In this Kingdom outside, the world created anew, is a true reflection of the inner marriage between the true God and the true church. This union is the true wine of ecstasy that brings the satiation of our deepest aspirations. Those who would keep humanity enslaved will tell you that it is a great heresy to believe in this God within. And I tell you that you have nothing to believe. No belief is necessary. You have to approach this as a true scientist, a true explorer of the inner spaces, and seek for yourself the knowledge of your true essence, of that which is silence and infinite, of that which is true beyond all forms, beyond all time—the center of yourself.
Seek within your heart, not the emotional or physical heart, but the center of yourself. There, you will find it. Silent. Vastly infinitesimal. All knower. Creator. Maintainer. Destroyer of all worlds. Look for the god within. Commit the ultimate heresy, and make contact with your true self.
This great work is an ultimate act of rebellion where you dare to stand alone, to disrobe yourself of all your programs and all your identities, and to face the empty void only as a silent presence. Then you can look at everything again, from this perspective, and pick and choose your experiences, your hypothesis, your assumptions. Pick them consciously, and they’ll go from being unconscious assumptions to being tools for you to use; as a carpenter uses and chooses a hammer, a saw, a nail.
Our family takes care of giving us the assumptions, foundations, and principles that teach us how to navigate the world.
Eventually, society—our larger tribe—takes over and provides us with the stories and narratives that allow us to know what group to identify with, what beliefs to hold, how to behave with other people, and even how to behave when we are alone.
Then, religion takes over to tell us how to think about god, and how to behave in the face of the infinite.
The Great Work is a long deprogramming process. You begin by setting aside all the identities and assumptions that the social group has given you: all the identifications with race, nation, and religion. All identifications with a human group being to be set aside as programs that have invaded your system. A lot of these programs have kept you trapped in a form that is limited, and are not your real self.
The Great Work is, in a way, a work of heresy where you begin to discard what society and religion tells you.
This brain of yours is, right now, creating the world. It is, at the same time, forming scientific hypotheses about the universe. It is doing this not only at the social level, but also at the natural and even the spiritual level.
The process of awakening has to do with taking these processes of the brain and bring them to a conscious level. It is about becoming conscious of the assumptions that you are making when you are defining yourself, and the assumptions that you are making when you are face to face with the infinite.
The brain is doing all this in a mater that is unconscious to you. Automatic. Make them conscious, and voluntary.
There is no mountain that can take you to the sun. There is no ladder. There is no staircase. There is no tree tall enough to take you to the solar center. And just like the sun that seems to travel across the heavens, unperturbed and untouched by clouds, atmosphere, or anything that can happen in this planet, so the true self moves across the surface of this life, unperturbed by all the going-ons, undisturbed by all the sufferings and all the joys that happen to your body, your mind, and your emotions.
The truth is within. The truth is never to be found in any religion, in any method, in any theory, in any teaching; because the truth is not outside of you. Anything outside of you is part of your experience of planetary existence.
There are methods and teachings that can help you clear the mind. That can help you focus the attention on what is real. They have to be used well. They have to be used to get to the truth. They have to be used to be able to see within yourself. If you use them for anything else, anything that is external, you begin to lose the focus.
Know, however, that you already are that. That everything you experience, you experience because there is that solar consciousness interacting with this body. That you wouldn’t be able to experience anything, were it not for pure-consciousness in you. Forget, then, all the teachings and all the religions, and all the theories, and all the ideas, and all the words of the masters.
Just look within yourself.
There is no tomorrow to do this. There is no time when this can be done except for now. Look now, within yourself. Wonder at the origin behind the center of your consciousness. Look at the center of that which looks; and know that silent emptiness, when interacting with your body, creates all your experiences, and that there is no experience at all that is more important than the truth within yourself.
I sit here.
I see shadows.
I sit here.
I hear words.
I hear the humming sound of electricity. If I close my eyes and hear deeper than my heart, I hear the high pitch noise that serves as a memory of that one moment after the fall. It reminds me what is waiting when the dream is over.
This is the thing: If you’re not thirsty, you won’t find the appeal for water. The satisfaction of drinking water is not inherent to the water. It comes from the experience of eliminating the thirst.
The Great Work makes no sense if your soul is not thirsty for it. The thirst for the waters of the spirit is a necessary condition for the satisfying taste of the dew of infinity.
Consider the following image: a gazelle walks to a brook. She lowers her head to drink from the clear, placid water. Shimmers of light play on the surface of the water, sending slivers of silver and light all around. The placid water and the playful light are reflected on the serene intelligence of the gazelle’s round eyes. The muscles of the magnificent animal are relaxed, as is indeed her mind, yet her ears stand and move around in attention.
If you could look closely, you’d see that while her muscles are relaxed, they are ready to jump and run any second. There is nothing slumbered about her. Our gazelle is fully alert yet deeply relaxed. Should a predator appear, she’d jump without missing a beat, and without waste of energy. While the place is safe, nothing is wasted in tension or worry.
Such is the state of relaxation you necessary for meditation: deeply relaxed and vividly alert.
Photography: Sharla Sanchez
Model: Crystal Sanchez